Endings

Philip Malazarte

I’ve never really liked endings. All my life, my entire being has shied away from endings. Books, shows, movies. It’s just how my mind works. I read books over and over again, watch movies and shows on repeat until my eyes bleed, and I stay in relationships that hurt. Because no matter what, I always fail to see the cons. This is not me saying that I’m an optimist. Far from it. It’s like a curse. No matter how well I convince myself that something is bad for me, There’s always that one part of my brain that has to disagree. There’s always that sliver of my soul that says we can make it work. It’s not so bad. And I always cave. No matter what, no matter the topic. I give in. That’s just how I work. I wonder if I’ll ever break that habit. I’m sure that there are others who are the same. Is it stubbornness? Or maybe it’s just resolve. Whatever the case, it sucks.